HELLO!

Home again home again

2005-05-09T22:41:00.000-05:00

So I'm finally home... unpacked yet??? NO... but it's all good. I miss my jackie and the other shoe 7 girls like CRAZY!! But I honestly haven't had time to do anything since I got home. Saturday, went with JW to a wedding... got entirely too intoxicated, but had a blast! Yesterday, MOTHERS DAY, I saw my mom for a total of 20 minutes, cuz I had my stupid WSI class ALLLLL DAYYYY. Today i went to work and got assigned to call every potential employee, set up interview times with them, make schedules for the summer, improvise rules of the pool, and makes sure we have all the proper supplies we need. This is ON TOP of having to call a million parents regarding swimming lessons and gettin them in the right class. ALSO, I am meeting with the JR High principal tomorrow regarding the coaching position they are throwing at me. AND SUMMER IS RELAXING!!!??? I just want time to chill, have some summer fun (six pack summer fun, jackie!), and maybe a visit up north... we'll see, I'm working on it, as long as I dont' have a nervous breakdown first!

So tonight Jeremy and I went to house sit for his brothers house, and now I'm home and he's at his brothers. No big deal except I'm about to go crazy because he's an actual distance away from me when I'm home!! What am i gonna do when he's not next door to me anymore!?

Alone

2005-05-04T17:26:00.000-05:00

This room is bare. The walls are bare, the closets are bare, the desks are bare. Jackie left today for summer and I feel like I'm missing half of myself or something. The sad part is that it's only been like 10 hours since all of her crap was moved out of here and she was headed back home. I have so much stuff sitting here in piles. It's like the first day all over again, except it doesn't feel so small anymore. It feels huge, open, and empty. I'm trying to avoid the stress of packing, which in turn has made the packing process last over 6 hours today. But I think I'm finally finished. Now I can sit back and..... what???

We had our last night @ the GREAT WALL, and the last margaritas for the year. The blender is packed up now and ready to be used for the summer!

College Brokeness

2005-04-26T18:27:00.000-05:00

Who in their right mind would stand in the pouring rain for 45 minutes to get huge burrito!! me and Alison, thats who! It was free damnit, and pretty good! Chipotle is ammmmaaazzziiingg...

So it's Tuesday, I still have 430 meal points. I have no idea what I'm going to do with them. They are nonrefundable, so I will just go to the C-store and buy the place out i guess!

In addition to my post about a week or so ago, go to this website http://www.factualmaterial.com/douchebag.htm

Dont' have much to post, and have to be @ the HPER @ 7:30 for a meeting!!!lata tatas

Last week...

2005-04-25T13:29:00.000-05:00

This is the last Monday I will ever go to classes @ IU... Just when I thought it would never end, I have to pack up my things soon and leave many people I have grown to love!

So this weekend was rated OK... Friday I went to the Beaver Lodge (if you dont' know what it is, dont' ask. You wouldn't understand) and felt so weird! I was one of the oldest people there. When I used to hang out there, I was always the youngest, and now I saw how STUPIDLY drunk I acted when I was a freshman. So to all you older girls, thanks for not kicking my ass when I was younger. To ease the awkwardness, I drank a LOT of homemade wine..mmmmm sweet! And Lindz was there and I haven't hung out with her in forever.. she cracks my shit up!

Saturday, i cleaned my room all day. Then went to the bachelorette party with Lisa. Had soo much fun @ Hacienda. There a crazy group of girls, especially when you pump some Bud Lights into them! Then they begged me to go to the bars, and I got in!! woot woot! I only went to one though, b/c I had to pick up my boy and his buddies @ the Brad's bachelor party later that night. Wow, he was plowed. All those guys are so nice too. They always say the nicest things to me, and treat me like one of the boys.

Sunday put a damper on the whole weekend. From 1-8 I had to go to the YMCA and start taking my WSI course so I can teach swimming lessons.. arghh.. after they almost didn't let me take the class, I finally persuaded them to let me in since I had already paid and was going to school 3 hours away and came home for it. The whole class is so pointless and could get overwith in a complete 3 horu session.... but NOOOO, I have to go 5 sundays for 7-8 hours!!! Not fun....

Back in B-town this week and gonna try to make the best of the short time with my fav.s!!

Busy Busy

2005-04-21T15:37:00.000-05:00

Whoever coined the phrase "New York Bitch": I would like to shake your hand. Come to Indiana University, and you'll see them. They have the tight black "Juicy" pants (far too small), wear Dior glasses the size of their head, and drive their Mercedes around like they own the place (and they have enough money, that they probably could!). So call me bitter, and say that I'm just jealous; your probably right, in a way. But seriously, I'm walking to class today, and I hear one of them from about a mile behind me. Of course, they were listening to their iPOD while talking on the phone at the same time. You could hear them coming from a mile. Well, she was giggling at "some girl" in front of her wearing.... NIKES!!!! Yes, that was me. Could you please tell me what is wrong with NIKES. A.) Comfort B.) cost me over $100 dollars!! But, for once in my life, I kept my mouth shut and didn't say anything to her. ARGHHH!!

In a few hours I have to go to the SRSC and recertify for my Lifeguarding. It's just a Challenge so it shouldn't take long, but I'm taking the class from the head of aquatics, and I worked for them earlier last semester and quit!! oops! Hope she doesn't hate me for that...

Now I'm gonna go pack up some stuff that I dont' need, to take home this weekend!! Hope everyone has a wonderful one!

Love~

I just wanna SCREAM!

2005-04-20T16:11:00.000-05:00

So this morning, an overwhelming rush of stress came over me! I'm so close to being done with 2nd semester, I can count the days til summer; and yet I have so much to do before it's time to really go. I have 3 papers, 2 tests, a project, and 2 finals. It's just one of those days when I need a hug. I hate that I only get hugs on weekends.

So I'm teaching swimming lessons this summer with Leah Straw at her house. If you know and kids that need lessons, send em on over! I'm also back at the pool this summer... yea, for my 5th year, pretty pathetic, but I can't pass up over $10 per hour!

I heard some really disturbing news about someone I graduated, and basically grew up with. It makes me sick to see what happens to some people. All I can do is pray for him/her and hope that God can show him/her the way.

So for now, I'm gonna go study, take a test, work out, watch American Idol, call my mom and have a good cry.. yea that sounds like a good idea!

Summer vs. School

2005-04-19T16:09:00.000-05:00

It's just around the summer folks!

I love summer. I love the nasty tan lines I get from work. I love the smell of chlorine in my hair no matter how many times I wash it. I love painting my toenails over other colors. I love showertimes at work. I love the smell of summer rain, and the smell of corn in the dead heat. I love when my mom packs special lunches and brings them to me at work. I love drinking beer, sitting around campfires, and hottubbing until early hours in the morning. I love having the windows down and then trying to comb the tangles out of my hair. I love being with my boyfriend, whenever I want. I love being walking distance from his house and peeking out the window to see if he's home.

I can't wait... but there's so much I'm leaving here...

I'm gonna miss venting to Jackie, watching office space with her, making fun of her for the healthy foods she eats. I'm just gonna miss the whole girl!! I'm gonna miss barging into Mal and Als room and stealing their candy. I'm gonna miss Tuesday night "Alison time," I'm gonna miss looking through Mallory's closet and trying on all her shoes. I'm gonna miss LaShonda sneaking into our room anytime we left. I'm gonna miss Ashley trying to "bust us," I"m gonna miss waiting everyday until 9 when I get to talk to my boy.

Mixed feelings. I'm so happy I'm transferring home, but look at all the wonderful people I'm leaving.. All I gotta say is ... IU EVERY WEEKEND!!

Almost time to say goodbye....

2005-04-18T18:58:00.000-05:00

A year has past and now we stand on the brink of returning to a world where we are surrounded by the paradox of everything yet nothing being the same. In a few weeks we will reluctantly give our hugs and, fighting the tears, say goodbye to the people who were once just names on a sheet of paper to return to people that we hugged and fought tears to say goodbye to before we ever left. We will leave our best friends to return to our best friends. We will go back to places we came from and go back to the same things we did last summer and every summer before. We will come into town on that same familiar road, and even thought it has been months, it will seem like only yesterday.

As you walk into your old bedroom, every emotion will pass through you as you reflect on the way your life has changed and the person you have become. You suddenly realize that the things that were most important to you a year ago don't seem to matter so much anymore, and the things you hold highest now, no one at home will completely understand. Who will you call first? Where are you going to work? Who will be at the party Saturday night? What has everyone been up to? Who from school will you keep in touch with? How long before you actually start missing people bargaining in without calling or knocking? Who will get breadsticks with you at three in the morning? How long until you adjust to sleeping in a room by yourself, or how long before you realize your three best friends aren't in the bed next to your room?

Then you realize how much things have changed, you realize the hardest part of college is balancing the two completely different worlds you now live in, trying desperately to hold on to everything all the while trying to figure out what you have to leave behind. In the matter of one day's traveling time, we will leave our world of living next door to our best friends, walking across campus to eat, instant messenger, 8:00 classes, and perpetual procrastination to a world that will seem foreign to us despite the fact that we have lived in it for nineteen years.

But it is different now... We now know the meaning of true friendship. We know whom we have kept in touch with over the past year and whom we hold dearest to our hearts. We've left our high school worlds to deal with the real world. We have had our hearts broken, we've fell in love, we've helped our best friends through the toughest times of their lives, something their even best friends at home couldn't be there for. We've stayed up all night just to be there for a friend. We've partied the night away, doing stupid stuff, but we were always there for each other afterwards. There have been times when we've felt so helpless being hours away from home when we know our families or friends needed us most, and there are times when we know we have made a difference.

A few weeks from now we will leave. A few weeks from now we take down our pictures, and pack up our clothes. No more going next door to do nothing for hours on end. We will leave our friends whose random emails and phone calls will bring us to laughter and tears this summer. We will take our memories and dreams and put them away for now, saving them for our return to this world.

A few weeks from now from now we will arrive. A few weeks from now from now we will unpack our bags and have dinner with our families. We will drive over to our best friend's house and do nothing for hours on end. We will return to the same friends whose random emails and phone calls have brought us laughter and tears over the past year. We will unpack old memories and dreams that have been put away for the past year.

A few weeks from now we will dig deep inside to find the strength and conviction to adjust to change and still keep each other close. And somehow, in someway, we will find our place between these two worlds.

In a few weeks.... are you ready?

It's over so soon?

2005-04-17T15:47:00.000-05:00

I jsut had a wonderful IU weekend! 80 degrees and sunny, with my fav. roomie, wonderous friends and crazy ass boyfriend!

Friday night, I got to chill with JW. Amazing.. that kids makes me feel like no one else! He is my best friend ever, no matter how annoying he gets sometime. I laugh non-stop when he's around, and i am truly happy!

Saturday, Jackie BIRTHDAY! We went to Dan's to grill out and drink.. and man did i drink too much in the afternoon... then we went to a Phil vassar concert and yes, HE KISSED MY HAND!!! It was extremely exciting.. Almost too drunk to remember, but i did! After that, me Jackie, Kristi, Jeremy, Nick, Alison and Mallory went camping in Brown County!! so much fun... redrank too much and feel like shit all day today!

Now it's sunday, and I had to say my goodbyes to JW.. which sucks. Long distance relationships are for the strongest.... garrr. Keep telling myself that at least.

Lil 5

2005-04-14T19:44:00.000-05:00

No time to blog!! it's little 500 week!! Hope everyone stays safe, but have a good time! Can't wait to see my boy tomorrow... COME TO IU AND VISIT!

Sunshine, what?

2005-04-04T22:15:00.000-05:00

I skipped two classes today to work on a project i have due tomorrow.. It only took me 3 and a half hours straight, without getting up even to pee!! I was very impressed with myself, but by the time i got finished, all the people who were laying out and enjoying the warm weather were goin inside b/c the sun was going down. I spent all day at my computer.. how sad is that!

This weekend was great fun! Jeremy and I went with Jeff and Amy, and Jeff and Amy, (confusing, but true) line dancing again! Seriously, I know I sound old and boring, but it is great fun.. plus dollar beer! Saturday, we went to Brad Elper's and sat around a bonfire.. what fun! I love when summers just around the corner!!

I haven't run in 3 days, and I ran 2.5 miles tonight and thought I was gonna die.. yea yea, laugh it up.. thats alot for me!

I have another test to study for right now, but I think I'll just relax and take a little nap first, sound like a good idea?

Scrumptious!

2005-03-31T17:23:00.000-05:00

Just ate an Antie Annes pretzel, my favorite food on earth! Nothing tops a 3 dollar preztel. So last night I went to Fazoli's. I just got finished running two and half miles at the gym and wanted a slice of cheesecake more than anything! So I go through the drive through and order a small order of baked ziti and a slice of cheesecake. I get my order and drive back to the dorms. When I get here I look in the bag and find that I have NON baked ziti with Maranara sauce and a sausage pizza... NO CHEESE CAKE... and I didnt' want pizza or the damn noodles they gave me!! But I was already back here and Americal Idol was coming on so I settled with the crap they gave me.

American idol: Jessica Sierra is gone.. She's good dont' get me wrong, but other people deserved to go before her. It's all good though because she was going to have to lose sometime, cuz my girl Carrie's gonna win it all. And I didn't just pick her because of the name.... she's just lucky enough to have a good name!

Reserved a treadmill at the SRSC for 7, so if I want a good long nap, I outta crawl into that bed! Later gators!

Restless

2005-03-30T18:30:00.000-05:00

Just got done taking my Psych test, listening to a little Andy Griggs with the windows open!! I hate tests where you really don't know how you did... garr

Another BEAutiful day in B-town! I love this stuff... seriously people come out of the woodwork! I think today was the first day that I've dressed up for a class since September, no joke. My feet aren't used to wearing sandals again.. ouchie!

I honestly don't know how i live in this room.. I'm the most unorganized cluttered person ever! I just look at it, knowing that I should pick stuff up, and walk over it.

Oh!! check out this website www.robbiegold.com ... this kid lives in the dorm over from me and has the most amazing voice ever! Listen to his music... I'm in love with itttttt!~ He's going to be famous soon, I just know it!

Gotta go get my workout done so I can watch Carrie Underwood continue to dominate American Idol!!

shit

2005-03-29T22:13:00.000-05:00

I just got finished eating my first fast food meal since before break... mmmm... well except for White Castle, but that was a complete accident!!

Just got finished watching American Idol.. GO CARRIE UNDERWOOD!! whoohooo she's amazing, and I wish I could sing like her.

So, in my bullshit P290 class today we played with a parachute, just like in grade school!! yea we got to "make popcorn" and sit under the parachute.. it was great fun! and last week we got yo hula hoop... seriously.. this class is such a joke, but fun people for sure!

I need money.. thats all it comes down to. There are so many things I want right now, but the problem is the lack of green in my pocket. Summer please come so i can roll in the dough again!

Well the phone is ringing and I must answer... Loves!

Happy (day after) Easter!

2005-03-28T21:24:00.000-05:00

Hope everyone had a wonderful holiday, now back to school... 5 more weeks of this until summer. And it was so nice outside today that 5 weeks seems like FOREVER!!

Had a really really good weekend. Friday night went out with Keri, Kody, and Jeremy and went to some party at some big house! It was really fun, fun enough to get a little crazy... but ya gotta get that way every now and then. Saturday I had Easter at my brothers and me, Jeremy and the fam sat around and drank and played poker... yeah, but we do have some fun. Sunday I went to Jeremys for Easter, played with baby Faith, played some games, then came back to my house for dinner.. it seems like everything I did this weekend was eat!! but it was good!

Now, I'm gonna go dry my hair, talk to my boy, then go over to McNutt with Jackie to take care of a little business!!

Loves!

Wasting Time

2005-03-24T16:36:00.000-05:00

I just got off the elevator a while ago downstairs, went around the weird divider thing, out the door, and was underneath the "awning" when i hear glass shatter and a screen fall from teh 6th floor!! Talk about a surprise. So now I'm really itching to figure out what happened... gonna have to go find that out later.

It's so nice outside. ya can't be anythign but happy on days like today. Campus has actually come to life or something. Everyone is outside studying, playing ball, and whatnot.

So I'm having issues with phone conversations. I HATE THEM. You can never really tell how a person is feeling b/c you can't see them. I was on the phone last night and couldn't tell if someone was pissed at me or not. GARRR.. He/she said nothing was wrong, but i didn't know if that was true b/c of the way they were talking!!

Going home tomorrow for the Easter weekend!! woot woot! Too bad gas is a million dollars a gallon...

Off to Target and to work out! later

Oreo Cookies

2005-03-23T14:57:00.000-05:00

So this whole "having to record everything I eat" is making me crazy!! I am makingmyself eat healthy things and a variety so that my analysis that I get from the website i use will look good to turn in to my teacher. But those OREO cookies on my shelf will get me every time!! there just so damned tempting!!

So what kind of dumbass forgets her jacket/coat at home when she comes back to school!? ME OF COURSE... it's 39 degrees today and I'm stuck with a sweatshirt. So I decided to take the bus all the way back to my dorm to give myself a little gift of heat! People on the bus are so interesting. I HATE taking the bus unless it's crappy weather b/c then I just feel lazy. But some people seriously will take the bus to go about 100 yards. I just wanna strangle those people! seriously, the US has enough obesity problems, and it's cuz we're too lazy to walk to the building over!! garrr

Think I'm gonna go work out before my 5:45 class.. so if your in that class stay away cuz I'm gonna smell yucky! just get over it!

Bye!

Back To Work

2005-03-21T20:05:00.000-05:00

So I'm not gonna lie. I'm hating life today! Had a pretty good Spring break over all and NOT excited about classes staring back up! But hey, lets look on the bright side, this year is almost over, and summer's just around the corner!!

So Spring Break:
Friday- quality time with the fam and my boy!
Saturday-Partied with Mariah @ tooleys, the the night went weird
Sunday- Nothing exciting enought to remember
Monday-drove around and drank with my boys
Tuesday-continued driving around drinking with my boys!
Wednesday-Went to Mandy's with Mar! then to tooleys to continue drinkin'
Thursday- Kim's with Keri
Friday- Katie Schmitt's party! CONGRATS to Kayla and Eric!
saturday- out with Jeremy's brothers and their wives.

So nothing TOO exciting occured.. but I kept myself busy!

I have to record everything I eat for the next three days for my H263 class... yea thats gonna be really scary! It's quite a long list already!

Better go.. it's time for me to do absolutely NOTHING for the rest of the night

Spring Break

2005-03-15T15:31:00.000-05:00

It's spring break dn i'm wearing a coat right now. I can't complain too much. I've had a pretty good one so far. Not too eventful, but fun. Especially weird calls from Jackie in Florida putting me on the phone with a random guy from Egypt that thought he knew me!! hmm?? I dunno bout that one.

This really sucks that I have to sit in the library to be able to get online! my weird parents and their incompetency to the World Wid Web. Or they're just tight with money and wont' pay for it at home AND dad's office... but come on people, the convienience thing here is killing me.

have to go! bye

WHITE CASTLE

2005-03-09T00:19:00.000-05:00

So i didnt' even make it out the door to the gym when Mallory and Alison told me they were going to White Castle and I HAD TO GO!!! so I did, and accidently forgot my lenton resolution :no fast food!! oops...

Then we came back and watched a little American Idol and studied Human sexuality with Alison for a bit... some funny stuff... thats for sure

2 days til SPRING BREAK!

2005-03-08T18:36:00.000-05:00

mmm. whoppers have to be the best candy ever made!! they just melt in your mouth!

So i never thought I would have a story book read to me in college until today. In my P290 Movement for Preschool and Elementary children, our professor seriously talks to us like were 5 years olds ourselves!! Today was the final straw though... we had to listen to a story about a dancing giraffe and make movements to the story!!! I swear, whoever said college was hard... I've had some hard ones, but some are just a joke!

So last week I ran everyday and felt so good about myself. This week I can hardly find myself the energy to get up and walk to the refrigerator. I really hate being lazy, so I'm gonna make myself go, as soon as I'm done informing you of my life.

My spring break plans are pretty calm.. going to the doctor, getting my application for this summer, going to get an apartment with Mar and Mandy!! so excited about that!! We're gonna have a crazy time next fall!

Well, better get on that working out problem I've been having this week.. off to the SRSC i GO!!!

all about ME

2005-03-07T14:47:00.000-05:00

So I had a wonderful weekend. Spent basically the whole weekend with JW and his fam.. always have so much fun with them, they make me feel like family, but I basically am considering I've been around them since 2nd grade.

I realized something this weekend; to let go of my inhibitions. Why the hell do I care what so-and-so thinks. I've always told myself that I didn't care what people think about me, but deep inside I always have. if people don't like me for the dumb things i say and my whole personality in general, then I wont' surround myself with them. I have found the people who really do like me for who I am, and are interested in what I have to say.

Secondly, I have always made my decisions based on someone else. This is MY time to really figure things out and i shouldn't have to base things I decide to do on what my family or friends think is best for me. i'm the only one who can really understand what I'm feeling..

SO dont' mean to sound bitchy, but as long as I can get those two things under control, I'll be happy... because thats what is important DAMN IT!!!

Time for Dr. Phil

Away Message

2005-03-03T21:16:00.000-05:00

what is it about the NEED to know what everyone on my buddy list is doing.. Why do I care? And why do they care what I'm doing. I admit, i am an avid reader of peoples away messages and I and Strongly against just a simple message.. i wanna know where you're going and what you're doing!! I swear I'm not a stalker, and deep down, you check away messages just as much as me, and I bet you can tell me what I'm doing right now... according to my away message at least!

So this week has been Looong and I'm so ready to get it over with!! For some reason I've gotten on this running kick.. I've run more in the past week than I have ran all together in my entire life. I dunno, just makes me feel good!!

CUTE!!

2005-03-01T23:35:00.000-05:00

Got this as an e-mail.. it's just soo cute!!!

Love tips by children:

WHAT IS THE PROPER AGE TO GET MARRIED?
"Once I'm done with kindergarten, I'm going to find me awife." (Tom, 5)

WHAT DO MOST PEOPLE DO ON A DATE?
"On the first date, they just tell each other lies, and that usually gets them interested enough to go for a second date." (Mike, 9)

WHEN IS IT OKAY TO KISS SOMEONE?
"You should never kiss a girl unless you have enough bucks to buy her a big ring and her own VCR, cause she'll want to havevideos of the wedding." (Jim, 10)

CONCERNING WHY LOVE HAPPENS BETWEEN TWO PARTICULAR PEOPLE:
"No one is sure why it happens, but I heard it has something to do with how you smell. That's why perfume and deoderantare so popular." (Jan, 9)

ON WHAT FALLING IN LOVE IS LIKE:
"Like an avalanche where you have to run for your life."
(Roger, 9)
"If falling in love is anything like learning how to spell, I don't want to do it. It takes too long." (Leo, 7)

ON THE ROLE OF GOOD LOOKS IN LOVE:
"If you want to be loved by somebody who isn't already in your family, it doesn't hurt to be beautiful." (Jeanne, 8)

"It isn't always just how you look. Look at me, I'm handsome like anything and I haven't got anybody to marry me yet." (Gary, 7)

"Beauty is skin deep. But how rich you are can last a long time." (Christine, 9)

CONCERNING WHY LOVERS OFTEN HOLD HANDS:
"They want to make sure their rings don't fall off because they paid good money for them." (Dave, 8)

CONFIDENTIAL FEELINGS ABOUT LOVE

"I'm in favor of love as long as it doesn't happen when 'The Simpsons' is on television." (Anita, 6)

"Love will find you, even if you are trying to hide from it. I have been trying to hide from it since I was five, but the girls keep finding me." (Bobby, 8)

"I'm not rushing into being in love. I'm finding fourth grade hard enough." (Regina, 10)

THE PERSONAL QUALITIES NECESSARY TO BE A GOOD LOVER:
"One of you should know how to write a check. Because even if you have tons of love, there is still going to be a lot of bills." (Ava, 8)

SOME SUREFIRE WAYS TO MAKE A PERSON FALL IN LOVE WITH YOU:
"Don't do things like have smelly, green sneakers. You might get attention, but attention ain't the same thing as love." (Alonzo, 9)

"One way is to take the girl out to eat. Make sure it's something she likes to eat. French fries usually work for me." (Bart, 9)

WHAT MOST PEOPLE ARE THINKING WHEN THEY SAY "I LOVE YOU"
"The person is thinking, Yeah, I really do love him. But I hope he showers at least once a day." (michelle,9)

HOW TO MAKE LOVE ENDURE:
"Spend most of your time loving instead of going to work." (Tom, 7)

"Be a good kisser. It might make your wife forget that you never take out the trash." (Randy,8)

Hungry!

2005-03-01T23:20:00.000-05:00

I'm starving.. thats it.. I'm so blasted hungry right now. I have nothing in the fridge but a couple beers and mayonaise.. not to great of a meal. It's freezing col and too late to go anywhere to eat, and I gave up fast food for lent, and I'm pretty sure that delivery is considered fast food. oop!

I went to leah's apartment today to discuss the swimming lessons we are teaching this summer.. hopefully by August, I'll be rolling in the money. At least I hope I will be considering i wanna buy a new car.

Haha I love sitting here at my computer staring out the window at other people in the dorm through their windows. I dont' mean to sound stalkerish or anything, but it's the most entertaining thing going on here, except the squealing girls down the hall, but I shouldn't worry about them, because Jackie claims she's gonna chop their heads off!!

have a good night. I have to go study for my STD test tomorrow.. NO FOR MY HEALTH CLASS PERVERTS!!!

Homeless

2005-02-27T23:09:00.000-05:00

Had a pretty good weekend.. fell asleep at about 8:30 on Friday night... yea I'm one tired girl. Saturday i went to an auction with the parents and mom bought a shitload of furniture that doesn't fit in our little house.. but we have to keep it there for another 6 months until we move into the new one!! whoopee!! I've started making mom a scrapbook fo the house and its progress and I do have to say it is really cute!! she better like it. So far all i have is pictures of the hole for the basement and it blocked... I'm kinda feeling sketchy about moving and all.. I've lived in the same house for like well my whole life, and even though I'm only moving like a mile away, it's gonna feel like 500. and JW and his momma won't be right next door to me! what am i gonna do!!! hahah i think I'll live

Well I've gotta go brush my teeth... the bed is calling my name!!

p.s.
"Wait for the boy who pursues you, the one who will make an ordinary moment seem magical, the kind of boy who brings out the best in you and makes you want to be a better person, wait for the boy who will be your best friend, the person who will drop everything to be with you at any time of the day no matter what the circumstances, wait for the boy who makes you smile like no other boy makes you smile and when he smiles you know he needs you, wait for the boy who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats and have no makeup on, but appreciates it when you get all dolled up for him, and most of all wait for the boy who will put you at the center of his universe, because obviously he's at the center of yours"

I'm so happy i don't have to wait any longer!!

WOW!!!

2005-02-23T00:18:00.000-05:00

So i've had this thing for a fairly long time and I just figured out how to get comments and a TITLE!!! shows you how computer savvy I am!!! so leave me one!

2005-02-23T00:06:00.000-05:00

So I witnessed a funny thing today... as jackie and i were driving back to pick up her car on Kirkwood this Envoy came to a complete halt in front of us and the driver and passenger quickly got out of the truck and ran to an object laying in the road.. that object was a person who appeared to be run over... but it's actually even funnier than that. He was passed out in the road apparently!!!! finally they helped him stand up and he was wobbling like one of those weeble toys we had when we were young... a VERY entertaining sight for my extremely dull night of homework... just thought I'd share...

Have a nice one!

2005-02-21T20:32:00.000-05:00

HOLY CRAP!!!! What a weekend! So I would talk about it on here, but 1.) It would last forever and 2.)just somethings you dont' need to type out!! you'll just have to ask!! haha love you mar!

So i got back to school today and I WASN"T happy about it... i've got the sore throat thing going on, a stuffy nose and my whole head is pounding!! Just ready to get this week over and JW will come up, hopefully!

Jackie got a job, so I sit here alone watching American Idol... sad day! So while she rolls in the money, i'll BLOG... what a life!! See y'all later!

2005-02-17T19:56:00.000-05:00

So i woke up today and decided not to go to myclasses... it's not like I feel bad, or their too early... just woke up a little late and decided to give up on school today! I did go to my last one though and turned in my project!! WHOOHOOO one thing out of the way.

So i had to go to Franklin today to get my transcripts and stuff, and I felt like a genius.. these two guys behind me couldn't fill out a simple form for the life of them.. you know how a Social Security # is XXX-XX-XXXX... well, they coudlnt' understand the concept of the dashes, and where they were supposed to be placed in the jumble of numbers... is it just me, or is that common sense?!

WE definately went to our yoga class and it was a waste of time to say the least!! None of us could sit still long enough to "relax"... then I went for a run... i SUCK at running.. not only to i HATE it, but my lanky long legs and arms make me look like an IDIOT!!! but oh well, the price to pay to burn off the late night binges I go on!

so what should i do tonight...sleep, daiquiris, movie, party??? hmmmm
Later!

2005-02-16T20:56:00.002-05:00

I love the feeling you get when a huge project thats been hovering over you for a long time is finally done!! WHOOHOOO!!! all I have to do is turn it in now. Still have a paper due monday but WHO CARES right now.. just celebrate!

So i'm really wired right now, after a quick trip to Starbucks... mmmm if you've never gotten a Caramel Apple Cider, you should!!! there WOOONDERFUL!

9 days until I get to see JW!!! weeee!! what to do this weekend... maybe Chicago?! we'll see..

American Idol time... sorry folks, must go feed my addiction to American Idol, and Newlyweds!!

2005-02-16T20:56:00.001-05:00

2005-02-16T00:49:00.000-05:00

Today was beautiful!! Not a thing in the world I can complain about. Yes, this is probably the most stressful week of my college life, but the weather made it all ok!! Jackie and I went on a drive through town with the sunroof open and the windows down listening to "Six Pack Summer".. it reminded me of this summer driving around with the FOUR... miss that...NE WAYS.. today is GREAT.. i love sunshine, Chinese food and my long talks on the phone with JW!!! night everyone!

2005-02-13T23:31:00.000-05:00

Here I am again... sitting in the cozy comfort of my dorm room... doesn't that sound a little oxymoronish.... I think so Dorm = not cozy + not compfy

so today has been HORRIBLE to say the least... but to tell you the truth, nothing really went wrong... just some things that have been building up over the last week has been bothering me... but i am still too big of a pansy to say anything about it. Maybe tomorrow... probably not.. even in the best relationships, boys still suck

so tomorrow is Valentines day... oh yipeeee.. not ... so I'm going to let you all go for the night... you dont' deserve to listen to me in such a blahh mood

2005-02-10T15:30:00.000-05:00

A little something since it is Valentines season:

p.s. these weren't written by me.. but it was some national poll or something!

Rules to Live By in a Relationship

1. Laugh alot, have a good sense of humor.
2. Look for new ways to fall in love all over again.
3. Let your love know you are there for them.
4. Show your partner you love them in every way possible.
5. Spend time apart, give each other space.
6. Add spice to your love life.
7. Avoid arguing.
8. Try new things.
9. Put your love's feelings first.
10. Keep your relationship full of surprises.
11. Trust one another.
12. Believe romance is important to your relationship.
13. Always have a good conversation with your partner.
14. Have faith in your relationship.
15. Tell your sweetheart how much they mean to you.
16. Be yourself.
17. Be romantic.
18. Always be there for each other.
19. Spend time together.
20. Whenever you have a misunderstanding make sure to talk about the problems and try your best to solve it together.
21. Treat your love as if they mean everything to you.
22. Treat your partner with the respect they deserve.
23. Never hang up the phone without saying I love you.
24. Never part without kissing.
25. Praise your partner often.
26. Never take your relationship for granted.
27. Make each moment with your with each other count.
28. Remember to take time for each other.
29. Keep happy.
30. Spoil your partner rotten!
31. Never go to sleep mad at each other.
32. Don't be afraid of making a fool of yourself.
33. Let your imagination be your guide.
34. Be a good listener.
35. Get to really know your partner.
36. Make yourself trustworthy.
37. Never be predictable.
38. Kiss your partner like you won't see them again.
39. Be open and honest.
40. Keep open communication with your partner.
41. Maintain a great friendship with your love!

2005-02-09T19:21:00.000-05:00

So i have an issue and would like some input. When the boyfriend does something that I don't necessarily think is RIGHT, I'm too big of a puss to say something about it. I dont' want to be the type of girlfriend who is possessive and tells my boyfriend what he can and can't do... but at this point I let him walk all over me, and he doesn't do it on purpose. Actually he doesn't even realize he's doing it. I know I need to speak up, because I really let thigns bother me.. HELP!!

Anyways, classes today were good. I actually stayed interested in each and every class I had. The guys in H263 are SOO funny and always entertaining.. if you put 3 football players and 3 swimmers together to talk about sex, how can it not end up being a riot!

Went to church today, and at the back there was a huge bowl of suggestions for what to give up for this week during lent. And instead of giving up something for so long, give up something you can't decide on for only a week at a time, and then continue to chose from the bowl every sunday. Well mine said, "Limit your time on the internet this week." YEA RIGHT!!!!! Maybe I"ll just stick to giving up the usual for 6 weeks!!

bye everybody!

2005-02-08T17:18:00.000-05:00

Ahhhh... just got back from tanning. I swear, its like doing drugs, bad for you but WOW it feels good. Except I'm the most impatient person in the world. Partly because I've had WAY too much sugar today, but I can't ever sit still for the life of me.

So I've been trying and trying to hold back from choking these two girls in one of my classes today, but today I couldnt' help but say something. I was in the middle of a presentation and these girls are like talking in their normal voices and laughing and carrying on! So I politely asked them to shut up during my presentation! then they talked crap about me through the rest of the class, but guess what I DON'T CARE!!! SO HA!

I am a jealous person, I know it. I'm in a AWESOME relationship, but I can't ever get over this jealousy thing. I trust him with everything, but I hate when he hangs out with people who i KNOW aren't so faithful to their girlsfriends... I'm not the type that would do anything about it, but I can't help it!! garrr... oh well..

Until later...

2005-02-07T13:09:00.000-05:00

I just want to crawl up somewhere and not come out until summer. SO this weekend was BEAUTIFUL!!! talk about shorts and t-shirts. But it was all a tease.. today it is rainy rainy rainy. So listen to my morning.. this could be the reason I'm so pissy!!!!

My car is getting fixed so i had to drive my mommy's blazer up here that gets NO GAS MILEAGE!! I get to Petersburg and there is a huge wreck and we have to detour so i have to drive a half hour in the opposite direction and AROUND this town... it took 50 minutes out of my trip... bullshit... so then I get to Washington after 2 hours and 15 minutes (usually a 1 hour trip), and have to get gas again!! but I dont' have my key to my dorm, credit card, debit card, but a measly 20 dollar bill.. so i get 5 bucks in gas and get on my way because by this time I'm crying my eyes out. So i call jeremy and he went to my house and didnt' see my keys anywhere in there either.. so i'm about to die, and then i get in bloomington and realize my parking permit is in my car at home!!! NO PLACE TO PARK MY CAR!!! I have to go to the front desk and get the spare key from the grouchy lady that works there, then they lose my confirmation saying I took the spare key to start with so they thought I STOLE IT!!! hor in the hell could I have jumped over the counter and stole my spare... anyways... about 20 minutes later, I find my keys, cards etc in the sleeve of my coat. and Now I'm just praying for no parking ticket or TOW NOTICE on my mom's car...

JEEEEEEEEEEZZZZZZZ

I hope this week goes by fast. I cant' handle too much more of this!!

2005-01-28T10:30:00.000-05:00

definately just got back from a very random trip to Purdue last night... Had fun, got drunk.... and called my brother at 2:30 in the morning!!! oops... going to bed.. have a great weekend

2005-01-24T15:56:00.000-05:00

Sorry I know it's long... but I'm bored!!

name = Carrie
: piercings = 2 in each ear, one in the gut (belly)
: tattoos = coming soon!!
: height= 5'9
: shoe size = 8 and 1/2
: hair color = dirty blonde
: siblings = 1 brother and a sister in law (does that count?)
:birthdate = 1/2/86
:birthplace = E-ville

LAST...
: movie you rented = Girl Next Door (HORRIBLE)
: movie you bought = Blue Collar comedy Tour
: movie you watched = Clueless
: song you listened to = "You Are" by Jimmy Wayne
: song that was stuck in your head = hmm.....
: cd you bought = Buying a CD??? HAHAHAHAH I'm a criminal
: cd you listened to = Brooks and Dunn
: person you've called = jeremy
: person that's called you = Jeremy
: tv show you've watched = OPRAH...right now in fact
: person you were thinking of = hmmm take a wild guess

DO...
: you own a dvd player = yes
: you have a crush on some one= maybe
: they feel the same way = HE BETTER
: you have a job = no i'm searching at the moment
: you wish you could live somewhere else = Ha.. just ask my roomie
: you think about suicide = no
: you believe in online dating = no
: you think you are weird = yes
: others find you attractive = i hope so
: you want more piercings = Maybe a cartlidge
: you like cleaning = take a look at my lifestyle... it doesn't fit
: you like roller coasters = The right word is LOVE
: you write in cursive or print = it's a crazy mixture

FOR OR AGAINST...
: long distance relationships= For... but not by choice
: using someone= against
: suicide = against
: killing people = against
: teenage smoking = against
: driving drunk = against
: gay/lesbian relati.: impartial
: soap operas = daytime soaps, no... 7th heaven YES!!!
:being around stupid acting people = depends what kind of stupid

HAVE YOU...
: ever ran from the cops and not got in trouble = yea, maybe once or twice
: ever went streaking around town, except with an inner tube around you:hmm sounds like an idea!!!
: ever cried over a girl/guy = yes
: ever lied to someone= yeah
: ever been in a fist fight = nope, but i've wanted to knock a few people out every now and then
: ever been arrested = nope
: ever gotten pulled over by the police = NEVER... knock on wood
: ever gotten out of a speeding ticket by flashing the officer = no

WHAT...
: shampoo do you use = back to basics
:are you scared of = heights
: are you wearing = my white tee, long underwear.. yea baby!! and jeans and my pink fuzzy slippers
: posters are on my wall = pics of friends... mostle

NUMBER...
: of times I've had sex =hmmmm.. i'll get back to you
: of times I've almost died: i'm dramatic, i "die" almost everyday
: of times I have been in love? 2
: of times I have had my heart broken? maybe one or two times
: of hearts I have broken? = at least one
: of boys I have kissed? = honestly, a girl never tells ;)
: of girls I have kissed? = once.. dont' remember so it shouldn't count!~
: of people I would classify as true, could trust with my life type friends? 4
: of times my name has appeared in the newspaper? who knows, I'm from a small town!!
: of scars on my body? = huh??! what the hell kind of question is that?!
: of things in my past that I regret? I try to have no regrets

DO YOU THINK YOU ARE...
: pretty = I would llike to think so
: hot = how am i supposed to answer a question likethat
: friendly = yes
: ugly = no
: loveable = I hope!
: caring = yes
: sweet = yes
: dorky = yes
: weird = yes
:nerdy = sometimes!

FAVORITE...
: 4 letter word: BAHH
: Candy: Clear gummy bears!
: Chewing gum: Dentyne FIRE
: Country or Hip Hop = Country, again BIG SURPRISE
: Color(s): Hot pink,
: Color nail polish: not too flashy
: Day of week: Friday
: Least fave day: monday
: Brands: New York and CO... ALL THE WAY
: Flower: Gerber Daisies
: Jello flavor: Orange
: Jewelry: my 3 stone diamond ring.. oops can't find it!!
: Special skills/talents: I'm great with kids
: Summer/Winter: summer
: Trampolines or swimming pools: both at the same time!!!

PERSON WHO LAST...

: Slept in your bed: JW
: Saw you cry: JW
: Made you cry: MOM
: You went to the movies with: Yackie, Andrea
: Yelled at you: MOM
: Sent you an email: Facebook
HAVE YOU EVER...

: Said "I love you" and meant it?: Yes, everyday!
: Gone out in public in your pajamas: Yes, of course... who cares!
: Went streaking: no, but sounds like something to do!
: Kept a secret from everyone: yes, but i'm not good at it
: Cried during a movie: yes, steel magnolias!!
: Ever at anytime owned new kids on the block stuff: yes and still do
: Planned your week based on the TV Guide: nahh... even tho American Idol sounds inviting!
: Been on stage: LOVE IT ON STAGE!!
: Been to New York: yes
: Been to California: yes
: Hawaii: no
: Wished you were the opposite sex: no
: What time is it now?: 9:23
: Apples or bananas?: BOTH
: Blue or red?: red (GO NP!!)
: Walmart or target?: TARGET.. for cute stuff.. wal-mart for price
: Spring or Fall?: Fall in B-town!
: What are you gonna do after you finish this?: get a panini and go to class!
: What was the last meal you ate?: PBJ
: High school or college?: I'm in college, but hs has the best memories so far!
: Are you bored?: occasionly
: Last noise you heard?: OPRAH! or lashonda...
: Last smell you sniffed?: PBJ
: Last time you went out of state/province? my b-day!!! St louie!

FRENDSHIP/LOVE...
: Do you believe in love at first sight? yes
: Do you want children one day & if so, how many?: 2 and if i dont' have a boy and a girl, we'll try for 3

OTHER INFO...
: Criminal record?: no
: Do you speak any other languages?: ha german in HS was a joke!
: Last book you read: Suzannes Diary for Nicholas
: Name some of your favorite things in your bedroom?: my abundance of pictures, my walls are crazy fun!
: Thing you dislike about yourself the most: i have a problem with patience
: Worst feeling in the world: being by myself
: Who you love: Family, close friends, jw and his fam!!
: Who you miss: ZTG, JAP

YOU...
: Nickname(s): Care Bear, Rudy aka rudolph, POP,
: Initials: CER
: How old do you look?: 21, I HOPE
: How old do you act?: hmm depends my mood
: Glasses/Contacts: neither
: Braces: nope, retainer tho!
: Do you have any pets?: had a cat but the neighbors stole it
: You get embarrassed:not usually!!
: What makes you happy?: being with people I love!!! and warm weather!
: What upsets you?: everything on any given day!

2005-01-20T21:10:00.000-05:00

So i started to do one of the survey thingys, but I definatly found it WAY too in depth and I'm jsut not int he mood to think that much. So you'll just have to guess my FAVORITE (fill in the blank). Snow is falling, and Carrie is NOT happy. I'm so sick of cold weather. Garrr. and now it's time for our floor meeting so I'm gonna go, then I may have to finish off the beer thats in our fridge...hmmm

2005-01-19T17:06:00.000-05:00

Sitting in the library trying to waste time before my 5:45. I am so exhausted right now I can't see straight. I just want to go back to the dorm and sleep for the rest of the week. But instead I'll go to class, then go to the IU vs. Michigan game then back to the dorm for , you guessed it, homework.

jeremy had court today for the whole "shooting a bird from a truck window" today. He ended up just getting a $1 ticket for each of the two tickets he got, but the court charges made the whole find add up to $163. At least he's not in jail or have a $500 fine or somthing crazy like that. Wow, it's so funny jsut thinking about it.

So i'm in my Education class today and some junior comes up to me and her mom went to North Posey or something, and her grandparents were really good friends with the maucks. Wow what a small world. Good thing i wore my NP sweatshirt to class today. REPRESENT!! haha... see we country fold get around, all right.

There is a guy next to me in the library playing some sort of game with this weird voice and it's kind of freaking me out. The game doesn't freak me out as much as him though because he's really into this game, like his toungue is hanging out and he's sweating profusly. A weird place, the library. I wish I knew where the books in the library were. I kind of need to check one out but i dont' have the slightest idea where the actual books are located... just one of the B-town mysteries!!!

Time to head out in the freezing cold to class....

Hope everyone had a good day

2005-01-18T23:16:00.000-05:00

It was quite an uneventful day here in B-town for carrie today. Classes started up again, and walking to them was NOT FUN!! The windchill was like -5 and i could feel my runny nose start to freeze.. haha not to gross anyone out. I"M TIRED OF THE COLD!! it seriously can depress someone! Anyways, tomorrow is a big game day, so we may have to do a little celebrating after the Basketball game, even tho jackie has a 8:00 class... that lil' shit.

we also signed up for a yago class on Thursday nights. Now, if you want to see something truly humorous, you should come watch me do that. And our instructor is a riot. she's like this 70 year old hippie lady, and she wears coordoroies!!!! anyways,,,,

IT"S MOVIE TIME!!!

2005-01-17T11:24:00.000-05:00

HAPPY MARTIN LUTHER KING JR. DAY!!! And the best part is, theres no class today!! whoohooo... So I just woke up about a half hour ago and it's now 11:30... one woudl think I was pathetic unless you heard the commotion on the floor last night. about 4:30 I wake up to two girls, unknown to me or this floor i think, screaming at each other right outside our door. So i go outside and do my "i'm tired and i want to kill you for being mad look", but it didn't work this time. So finallly about 45 minutes later, they decided to carry on their argument within a room.... good thing, because I really wanted to hurt them!!! As most people know, i'm not too good when people disturb me from my sleep.

So this weekend was pretty fun. Jeremy came up with Kyle, Nick, Matthew, and we ended up hanging out @ Leahs. it was really cool, but kinda weird because thats definately not the group I'm used to hanging out with in B-town. Anyways, I got pretty trashed, blah blah, and the rest is history. But fun times anyways. So yesterday, after the boyz left, i wen with jackie to see "Meet the Fockers" for the second time. I think i appreciate that movie alot more than jackie. she felt "awkward" through the whole thing... it is soooo funny!!

So i haven't made any promises yet, but i may have to go to Daytona Beach for spring break! Like I said NO PROMISES, but I am going to think it over in my head. It sounds like a blast... i dunno we'll see.

So i'm gonna go now so I can do a little studying before we begin the day with a good fry in the Tanning bed. Then I'm meeting the parents in Loogootee for some dinner.

2005-01-12T16:19:00.000-05:00

So classes have officially started. It feels like we've been back here forEVER, but today is only the 3rd day of classes. i like all of them pretty much, and I think I'll have a pretty easy semester. The only bad thing is, i have a class from 5:45- 7 on monday's and Wednesdays, and by this time, i'm about done with the day. But I also can get alot done in my break, so I dont' have to do anything at night... wow this is a boring blog!!

So anyways, Jackie and i have started nightly goals of staying up through a whole movie.. and we were doing pretty good until last night. booo... I'm sure we'lll try again.

I have to tell you guys about the HORRIBLE smell coming out of our fridge. Jackie got back a few hours before me on Saturday and was unpacking her things an such, when she opened the fridge to find that fuzzy mold was covering EVERYTHING in there. HOW DISGUSTING!!! The most disgusting part was that the only thing NOT molded in the fridge was my Kraft American Cheese.... that goes to show you how many preservatives they pack into that stuff. Oh well, it didnt' stop me from buying more at the store!!

I think i'm gonna go now so I can get a panini before I head to P102... Have a good day

p.s. JW comes in 2 days!!

2005-01-09T22:03:00.000-05:00

back to school and classes start tomorrow... i came back yesterday to go to the ball game and to get settled in and get books and everything. Jackie kept me busy for most of the day so i haven't been that homesick yet. After I talked to JW tonight, I got a lil upset, but you'll have that. I'm kind of excited to start classes tomorrow, just to get things going and to start something new. I'm really excited because I dont' have to get up for a class until 11:15 everyday!! whoohooo for that!

Anyways, break went wonderful, and I wish I could do it all over again. I love home and i wanna be there now!!!! garrr... oh well, lifes a bitch, right??

2004-12-31T11:39:00.000-05:00

22 inches of snow has finally melted!!! WHOOOHOOO

2004-12-27T17:25:00.000-05:00

Hey everybody.. I dont' have much time to write just wanted to say i've had an awesome break, and hope you all have too!! Have a wonderful remaining break... and i miss all of my buddies at IU!!!

2004-12-18T15:19:00.000-05:00

Wow. It's been a while but I can honestly say that I've been super busy the past week and a half. I'm sitting at my Dad's office right now using his computer, and it's like 80 degreees in here, no joke. I'm about to die of a heat stroke. Ok not really. (i put pink and red together to bother jackie!! hope it worked!)
So finals week was just what I expected. I did prett good on all of them and I'm satisfied for the most part until I figure out what I got on my math final, the who knows! I'm supposed to be finding a class for next semester but I'm too lazy to deal with OneStart right now.
I came home wednesday night to my sick little boy!!! Poor guy, I feel so bad that he has to lay around and do nothing for a while, so i've pretty much kept him company for the past 3 days, nonstop watching tons of movies and TV shows. Now today he feels better, went out with Nick and thats probably the last I"ll see of him until I leave!! haha... he needs me when he's laying around until he finds something better to do!! j/k kind of. I went to the basketball game last night and it was so crazy seeing people I haven't seen for a long time. Everyone kept coming up to me and asking me about school and such... and i hate telling everyone that i love it... but the usual came out... "yea finals were hard", or "i really love my classes".... i jsut wanna write on my forehead... I HATE IT AND I DONT" WANNA GO BACK.... except for "yackie"... haha i miss her already!. It was really nice talking to people tho, other than that.
Today, I can honestly say I have done nothing... and i really like it actually. I"m gonna call Mar tonight and see if she wants to do something, cuz i miss her :(... Tomorrow is part of Jeremy's christmas, so i'm gonna do that then.. i dunno. whereever the wind blows... haah i sound like a hippie!!

I want a new car. an SUV right now!! I think i'll probably start looking into one for this summer, because I'm going to be working at the pool again as Head guard, and hopefully teaching swimming lessoins.... which should give me a ggood down payment on a car.
OK , I really need to find a class on OneStart... MERRY X-MAS!!!

2004-12-10T01:35:00.000-05:00

trying to figure this out... disregard this blog.. haha

2004-12-09T13:00:00.000-05:00

I just spent a good 15 minutes trying to find my cell phone in my room. You'd think that living in a tiny little room, I wouldn't have any trouble doing that. ANYWAYS... I just finished eating my ritual Thrusday Panini from Hoosier Cafe... yummy! Now I am sitting around avoiding homwork... which is not a good thing considering finals a few days... Oh well, shit happens.
As many of you know, I am transferring home next fall. Now, it's not a "done deal for sure" thing, but probably true. I really do LOVE some things about here (i.e. my roomie, my buddies, and classes), but my heart is not here. It really makes me mad that I'm not happy here, but I'm not. Not yet anyways. I'm staying next semester to see if things change around and they may possibly! But I need to be where I'm happy. These are "the best years of your life", so I should be enjoying the moment. However, I've been the type of person who was never satisfied with the things in my life, and now I realize I've had everything all along, but i never took advantage of it.
Ok enough serious stuff.. I'm going to Texas Roadhouse here in a few hours to get JW's surprise. He's going to be so excited.
Last night i was so sad. I had to work through yet ANOTHER HOOSIER basketball game, but it's ok. I"m QUITTING!!! After the game, Jackie, her brother, Andrea and i sat around and drank a few beers.... fun but not too exciting.
Ok, so I'm a blog freak and it seems that every single one i've read lately is people talking about high school and what they miss. So here's mine:
I miss everyone knowing everything about me. I miss my comfort zone. I miss nasty ranch at the salad bar, and chicken for lunch everyday. I miss sitting with my best friend on the bench everyday, waiting to see who would come talk to us. I miss talking with her about people(hehe). I miss cramming girls into JB's Monte Carlo and trying to impress upperclassmen. I miss MT's bobble head dog. I miss RB and MT's trips to Wal-mart, and front porch talks. I miss rainy ball games and bus rides home. imiss getting up for practice at 6:00. I miss my guidance ladies. I miss Mr Rose throwing things at me and Mr Rynks puns. I miss Ms. Smiths randomness and Drews continuous comments after anythign she said. I miss hayrides, fall harvest, and stepping in cow shit before prom. i miss reading the bathroom stall walls. I miss him spying on me everynight. I miss us talking about our current relationships. i miss driving on backroads for hours at a time. I miss talking about how "this place" sucked. I miss my friends I loved and even some that i despised. i miss my home, and soon not being able to call it my home anymore.

GRRR... ok sorry about that.

2004-12-07T16:34:00.000-05:00

So i'm wasting a little time before I have to go pick up Jackie from class. We're going to take care of the seasonal depression thing (aka tanning), Steve and Barrys for a little x-mas shopping, then back to lovely briscoe, where i am going to CLEAN!!!! I"ve got to, this place is disgusting, so i know I must be about to drive Jackie crazy.

Haven't decided if i'm gonna go home again this weekend, just gonna wait it out and see how I feel.

Last weekend was wonderful, as usual. Friday, we sat around and watched about a dozen movies. Saturday, Mom and I went into town for a little while then met up with the fam and jeremy at my brothers for a night of alcohol and poker!! haha, i love hanging out with my family! After that, jeremy and i went to Natalie's for a little because she came home last weekend as well. Sunday, I went shopping and got home to find that i had locked myself out of the house and my parents were in St. L. Dumbass Jeremy didn't put the spare key back in it's hiding space when he came in that morning to wake me up!! garr.. so I called him to ask him where he put it, and of course it was in the house.

About two hours after the fact, i got in my house and jeremy called saying that he got two tickets!!! haha I wont' go into detail now, but if you wanna hear a funny story, just ask. it was nasty rainy so I came back to B-town on Monday morning to avoid yucky rainy nightly driving.

And now I'm here and it's Tuesday... garrr.. I just wish these 8 days woudl jsut go alittle faster!!

I'll probably blogg again later... it's a boring yucky night!!
bye!

2004-12-03T10:11:00.000-05:00

I"M WASTING TIME BEFORE CLASS....

1. WHAT IS YOUR FULL NAME? Carrie Elizabeth Rudolph
2. WHAT COLOR/TYPE OF PANTS ARE YOU WEARING? Jean, that I've worn the past 2 days!
3. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW? Commercials on TV
4. WHAT'S THE LAST THING YOU ATE? Little Debbie Sebra Cakes.... mmm healthy
5. WOULD YOU WISH UPON A STAR? always
6. IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE? Pink
7. HOW IS THE WEATHER RIGHT NOW? 34 and sunny
8. LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE? JW
9. DO YOU LIKE THE PERSON WHO SENT YOU THIS? Haha I stole it from "yackie"
10. HOW OLD ARE YOU TODAY? 18
11. FAVORITE DRINKS? Whiskey Girl.... and Beer,
12. FAVORITE SPORTS? Football and Wrestling, but i wouldn't say I'd probably be skilled at that
13. WHAT COLOR IS YOUR HAIR? little bit of everything, cept red
14. DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS? nope
15. SIBLINGS? Older brother and sister-in-law!
16. FAVORITE MONTH? Any month I'm not in School
17. LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED? Office Space.. haha EVERY NIGHT
18. FAVORITE DAYS OF THE YEAR? Christmas, and like i said earlier, any day that i'm not in school
19. WHAT DO YOU DO TO VENT ANGER? Whine to Jackie and my mom and jeremy and the rest of the world
20. WHAT WAS YOUR FAVORITE TOY AS A CHILD? jeeez... i dont' remember
21. SUMMER OR WINTER? summer, duh i have major seasonal depression
22. HUGS OR KISSES? Kisses are great, but Big hugs where you get squeezed so tight you think your guts are gonna fall out... yea those are the best
23. CHOCOLATE OR VANILLA? I'm a PMSing girl... take a guess
24. LIVING ARRANGEMENTS? dorm... BRISCOE.. ugh
25. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED? HA funny question, i cry at least once a day
26. WHAT IS UNDER YOUR BED? Jackie, haha BUNKS
27. WHO IS THE FRIEND YOU HAVE HAD THE LONGEST? Jeremy
28. WHAT DID YOU DO LAST NIGHT? I was in a GOOD MOOD... hung out with Jackie and Andrea
29. FAVORITE SMELLS! Thanksgiving dinner, any smell pertaining to x-mas and Jeremy's house
30. WHAT INSPIRES YOU? friends and family
31. WHAT ARE YOU AFRAID OF? everything.... dark, being alone, failing
32. PLAIN, BUTTERED OR SALTED POPCORN? dont' like popcorn
33. FAVORITE CAR? anything that runs
34. FAVORITE FLOWER? roses, and gerber daisies
35. NUMBER OF KEYS ON YOUR KEY RING?3
36. WHAT DID YOU DO ON YOUR LAST BIRTHDAY? We were driving back from Florida!
37. HOW MANY STATES HAVE YOU LIVED IN? 1
38. HOW MANY CITIES HAVE YOU LIVED IN?never lived in the city, never plan to (unless you count bloomington, and this is just my temporary place of residence)
39. HOW MANY COUNTRIES HAVE YOU BEEN IN? 3
40. HOW MANY CARS HAVE YOU HAD & WHAT WAS THE FIRST CAR THAT YOU HAD? just one, the 'clipse
41. WHERE WERE YOU BORN? E-ville, Indiana

2004-12-03T01:37:00.000-05:00

It has been one interesting week.

So as of now, I have no idea where I'm oing to be next year or what I'm doing and let me tell you that REALLY stresses me out.. but i'm not going to get into that now, because today has been a good day!!! whew!! and i'm going home tomorrow.. yet again.. haha, gonna have a big family conference over my future plans. OK NO MORE... Carrie will get upset

So today i wrote a 5 page paper... exciting?!?! no... umm nothing really exciting happend but it was just pleasant. and I don't have many of those. I just want to make it through next week and Finals and then get a long, well deserved break... and then find out what I'm doing from there.

Well i'm too add tonight to write on here Later!!

2004-11-30T23:24:00.000-05:00

what a day... when you really think your family is there for you. My mom and I got into it huge tonight. It's probably obvious to anyone reading this blog that i dont' really just LOVE IU. Well I call my mom alot and cry. sorry, i thought that was what mothers were for... and i understand that that can be really stressful for her because she wants me to be happy... but to tell me that everything thats going through my head is stupid and that i may as well come home to USI and save money so that she can have a nicer HOUSE... i think that was the most selfisha and hurtful thing i've ever heard coming out of my mothers mouth. I really just dont' knwo what to think about that. i have a huge headache right now and just want to cry to someone, but i cant' to her.. and i cry too much to jackie and jeremy. grrr.....

we bought x-mas decorations today and are room is super cute!!!!

well i'm going to get some medicine and attempt to sleep, but i doubt i do too much of that tonight.

just please pray that i can get through these next couple of days...
p.s. 15 till Christmas Break

2004-11-30T13:42:00.000-05:00

ok... So waking up on Tuesday mornings, as gloomy as it is today... call for a BAD DAY... however, i have been cheered up, so maybe the rest of the day will go a little smoother (haha not a word). I burnt my tounge on Hot tea when i was home and my tounge STILL hurts. haha I've been bothering jackie with it all week (well ok the two days we've been here). But seriously, it's hard to eat anything.. garrr..

I think everyone kinda feels crappy. I mean, the whole Thanksgiving break thing was a joke. WAY TOO SHORT. Just made ya feel worse to come back here. but all i gotta say is:

15 days until X-mas break!!!! haha i'm the queen of countdowns... trust me

Well have to go pick "Yackie" up from class and tant o cure our seasonal depression... I'm probably write later...
LOVE YOU ALL

2004-11-29T11:09:00.000-05:00

i'm back.... for two and a half weeks at least. I haven't written in here for a long time because I was too busy over thanksgiving break to care to even get on the internet... i LOVE THANKSGIVING BREAK... had a really good time even tho some bad thing occurred.

Friday night, me and JW went out, looking for the perfect tattoo for me. Didn't find one that I just HAD to get, so we just hung out the rest of the night. It's never boring with us two!!! holy crap, we're crazy.

Saturday night I went out with Anne and Keri and drove around looking for spooky bridges again... AHGHHH. I had this really uneasy feeling all night so i just decided to go home really early. I knew something bad was going to happen. About 1:00 i got a phone call from jeremy... and he was the the bad news giver.... So all day Sunday and Monday were pretty slow days, waiting to see if his uncle would live or not.. thank goodness he's still hanging in.... but pray for him , please.

Wednesday, the gang hung out... me keri, kody, and jeremy.... haha... i didn't hink i was that drunk until I woke up at 4:30 feeling completely sick, but not a drunk sort of way... so i hopped out of bed and fell into the wall!!! whoa!! i wasn't drunk when I fell asleep, but i def was at 4:30... after i woke up i didn't go back to bed again...

So i had to survive turkey day with only 2 hours of sleep, and a hangover.. and an EAR INFECTION in both ears!!! yea... it really made me happy... NOT

Friday night i was at home..... dickly... but SATURDAY... was great. Kody and Jw work for a REALLY rich guy in e-ville and he took us all out to eat then back to his MANSION for as much alcohol as we wanted!!! what more could we ask for....

And now it's monday, and I'm back in B-town. i only have to survive 2 and 1/2 more weeks... but let me tell ya... i got pretty spoiled seeing my BF everyday... and i already miss him... grrr...

2004-11-19T01:41:00.000-05:00

So this is the last time i'll be blogging for a while, because my thanksgiving break starts tomorrow WHOOO HOOO. and right now i'm sitting back listenin to the jackie/carrie mix and drnking a margarita or two, or three, or twelve... who knows!!

Our RA was singing at the top of her lungs tonight in the shower, in some foreign language... WEIRD...

Listen to this... not fair at all.. Hannah Jo (jeremy's neice) got on stage at the gretchen wilson/Big and rich concert and got BIG's guitar... she's only 5!!!!! i'm so jealous...

Anyways.. i'm not in the mood to write and i get to go HOME TOMORROW.... YAYAYAYAYA

2004-11-17T23:58:00.000-05:00

OK, so i'm copying off of Andrea!! get over it!!!

FIRSTS
First best friend: Natalie Paddock, since we were in the womb!!
First car: The "clipse"
First screen name: WildChild8604, and it's still going strong!!
First self purchased CD: MTV PARTY TO GO!!!
First pets: Big Mama, my goldfish
First piercing/tattoo: ears on my 6th birthday

LASTS
Last cigarette: This summer, but i can say it was only my second ever
Last car ride: home from work.... blahh
Last good cry: Every DAMN DAY, lets just say carrie's a little overemotional
Last library book checked out: Library???
Last kiss: Sunday....
Last crush: Hmmm.. thats no big secret
Last phone call: Jeremy, and he's on the phone right now!!
Last time showered: 5 minutes ago, for the first since Sunday
Last shoes worn: flip flops
Last song played: One More Day by Diamond Rio
Last item bought: SMOOTHIE KING
Last annoyance: hair on the shower wall!! yuck
Last shirt worn: NP CHEER
Last website visited:Oncourse, my life
Last word/s you said: Are you kidding.. i never STOP talking
Last song you sang: Simple Life by Carolyn Dawn Johnson
What color of underwear are you wearing? pink orange and yellow stripes
What's under your bed?: jackie
What time did you wake up today?: 10, but i should've gotten up at 9 to study!

FUTURE
Where do you want to go? HOME!!
What is your career going to be? OT... hopefully
Where are you going to live?in POCO... where else!!
How many kids do you want? 2
What kind of car(s): a BIG TRUCK

CURRENT
Current mood: happy... i go home in 2 days!!!
Current music: nothin...
Current taste: nasty chinese food
Current hair: WHITE TRASH... and half wet
Current clothes: my red pj pants and a tee
Current annoyance(s): the cold wind blowing in my window
Current book: no time for liesure... i'm reading NOTES from class
Current hate: EXAMSS

(x) - you've done(_) - you haven't done
(x) been drunk
(_) been high
(x) had sex
(x) kissed a member of the opposite sex
(x) kissed a member of the same sex
(_) crashed a friend's car [i wasn't driving]
(_) been to Japan
(x) ridden in a taxi
(x) been dumped
(_) been in a fist fight
(x) snuck out of my parent's house
(x) ever dated someone of the opposite sex
(_) ever dated someone of the same sex
(x) had feelings for someone who didnt have them back
(x) been arrested (my fam is good friends with a police officer, it was a joke)
(x) made out with a stranger
(x) stole something from my job
(_) celebrated new years in time square
(x) gone on a blind date
(x) had a crush on a teacher (hello, MR TREADWAY)
(_) celebrated mardi-gras in new orleans
(_) been to Europe
(x) skipped school
(_) been married
(_) gotten divorced
(_) had children
(x) seen someone die
(_) been to Africa
(x) Punched a friend when playing around
(x) Been to Canada
(x) Been to Mexico
(x) Been on a plane
(x) Seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show
(_) Thrown up in a bar
(x) Purposely set a part of myself on fire (haha, remember Jr high. engravings)
(_) Eaten Sushi
(_) Been Snowboarding
(x) Met someone in person from the internet
(_) Been moshing at a concert
(_) Been in an abusive relationship.
(x) gone to college
(x) taken painkillers
(x) love someone or miss someone right now (lyjw)

UNIQUE
1. Nervous Habits? Biting my nails. and pit stains... yuck, i know
2. Are you double jointed? no, but my legs do funny things, ask the cheerleaders
3. Can you roll your tongue? yep
4. Can you raise one eyebrow at a time? nope, not cool enough
5. Can you blow spit bubbles? HECK YEA... come look sometime
6. Can you cross your eyes? yes
7. Tattoos? Thanksgiving Break!
8. Piercings and where? two in each ear and my belly!!
9. Do you make your bed daily? HA.. thats really funny!!

CLOTHES
10. Which shoe goes on first? whichever is closest to me
11. Speaking of shoes, have you ever thrown one at someone? of course!!
12. On the average, how much money do you carry in your wallet? I"m a college student, you take a guess
13. What jewelry do you wear? Ring, all the time feel naked without it
14. Favorite piece of clothing?Sweatshirts and BAGGY sweat pants

FOOD

15. Do you twirl your spaghetti or cut it? twirl it
16. Have you ever eaten Spam? seen it.. will never touch it
17. Favorite ice cream flavor? it makes me sick
18. Favorite candy treat? clear gummy bears.. and NERDS
19. Ideal bagel? nto a big fan, unless its a BAGEL SANDWICH
20. How many cereals in your cabinet? one... but it's been in there for a while.. it's probably gone bad by now

2004-11-16T23:33:00.000-05:00

Twelve Favorite Movies:
1. Dirty Dancing
2. Pretty Woman
3. Clueless
4. How to lose a Guy...
5. Office Space
6. Steel Magnolias (can you tell i'm a chick flick freak)
7. NEMO!!!
8. Honey, I shrunk the kids (fav from childhood)
9. Men in Black (Will Smith is my man)
10. Now and Then
11. My Girl
12. Grease

So today I actually feel like I got something accomplished... which is rare. I wake up every morning and mope aroudn with nothing to do... well this week is nothing like that!!!! it's kinda crazy. But i dont' feel like writing in here, so i'm gonna go watch Steel Magnolias and show Jackie some True country living.

thanksgiving break is soooooooon!!!!!

2004-11-15T22:58:00.000-05:00

Yea... so i'm stressed out... believe it or not!!! ahha, ok we all know that i'm a drama queen.

So all my buddies that are going to the purdue game are going to a comedy show in indy the night before.... but carrie doesn't have a ticket... that proves to be a problem, meaning she wont' have anything to do on friday night while they're there and she will probably just go home... SOUND LIKE A GOOD SOLUTION TO ME!!!i dunno

Went apartment hunting today... "bagged us a good one" hopefully. We really like the place we saw... so we'll see how it turns out!

should be doing homework... but i'm too stressed... the sad thing is, i'm not stressed about the homework, i'm stressed about not being at home... grrrr

I NEED My HEAD EXAMINED!!
p.s. my boyfriend hasnt' called yet... another grr

2004-11-15T21:20:00.000-05:00

1. Spell out your name using artist and band names:

Counting Crows (always have great ones)

Andy Griggs (She thinks she needs me=best song EVER)

Rascal Flatts (just for Jackie, even tho i'm not the biggest fan)

Reba (she gets prettier as she gets older... i hope i have that trait)

Incubus (jsut have to listen to understand)

Easy E (haha gotta but a little fun in my name)

2. Do you have a song written about you? LOTS
Simple Life--Carolyn Dawn Johnson
One More Day--Diamond Rio (pretty much my life here)
You ARE--Jimmy Wayne (HANDS DOWN)

3. What songs make you cry?
In My Daughters Eyes
I believe there are angels among us (ztg)

4. What songs make you happy?
Anything i can sing to... and any song if i'm with the right person

5. What song do you like to listen to before you go to bed?
ONE MORE DAY

2004-11-15T21:13:00.000-05:00

Fifteen random things you love
1. Posey County!
2. My family
3. JWW... and his family
4. Kids
5. Auntie Annes Pretzels
6. Cuddling
7. Bubble Baths
8. Sweet voice mails
9. Thanksgiving dinner
10. hugs.. especially the ones that you lose your breath because you're being squeezed so hard!
11. cowboys... hats, and boots included
12. hanging out with the FAB four
13. Fall at IU... you just have to see it to understand
14. clear gummie bears
15. GOD

2004-11-15T09:28:00.000-05:00

blahhh... i'm awake, going to work, going to class, studying then ending this day so i only have 4 days until Thanksgiving Break.

but until then, 5 days till break!!

2004-11-14T23:52:00.000-05:00

Yet another WONDERFUL weekend that I didn't want to end. Went home Friday, shopped a bit with the mother, then went out with JW for the night... but of course I went to bed at like 10 o'clock, because Saturday was a big HUNTIN' day for him. And he "bagged him one" on Saturday morning so I got to see alot of him for the rest of the weekend!!! WHOOHOOO....

Saturday night, we went out with Keri and Kody... went to Bradley's party, and even tho it was pretty boring, that didn't stop me from getting drunk. ALWAYS so much fun to hang out with the FAB FOUR... we can ALWAYs find a good time.

This morning, i woke up to a two year old crawling all over me!! grrr... but then i saw it was Clay, and my whole day was set from there!! Jeremy brought the kids over to wake me up and we all made a big breakfast together, complete with chocolate chip pancakes, just for Hannah Jo. What Carrie doesn't do for that girl!~!!

Mom and Dad went out of town today for the St. Louis football game, so i had the house to myself for the day. Went to Wal-mart, stood in line for 40 minutes for... get this... ANOTHER DEER TAG... yea, gotta start working on the next one.... then went and paid my cingular bill (luckily, not tooo expensive), and ate at LOGAN's... mmmmm

I'm going home now on SATURDAY after the Purdue game!!! i'm sooo pumped... even though i really shoudlnt' be missing my classes... i don't care... now i just have to get off work!!! i HATE work... it' ruins it all... but i swear it won't ruin these plans... i'll just quit... ok so i probably won't.

anyways... 6 days till i go home for a WHOLE WEEK!!!!

Song of the day: My Maria, Brooks and Dunn (if you must know, ask Carrie or Jeremy for our rendition!!!)

Hope everyone had a good weekend... i sure did!!! love you all, especially you!!

2004-11-12T10:00:00.000-05:00

10 days until I go home for Thanksgiving!!! WHOOHOOOO... i even dreamt about thanksgiving dinner last night, only my dream went awry when, uh oh, WE RAN OUT OF STUFFING!! what's a girl to do what that happens???

So i didnt' get muchsleep last night, regardless of how tired i was... i was woke up at 1:30, 2:00. and 2:30, to some LOUD people... grrr.. i really have patience with most people until they wake me up, but anyone who knows me, udnerstands that... i'm not too much of a fun person when sleeping. I've gotten better, but i used to kick and punch it people woke me up. Jennifer Droege always used to find so much pleasure in waking me up in the morn... grrr... haha i do have some pretty funny pics from her doing that... but i'll never show, cuz WOW they're scary!

Ok, so i'm in a delimma. when i go home today, should I GO HOME, or lie to my mom and tell her i'm not coming home so I can stay out. I think I'll GO HOME... thats really what i want to do. AHHH guilt!!

2004-11-11T15:32:00.000-05:00

"The soul would have no rainbow had the eyes no tears."--John Vance Cheaney

2004-11-11T15:26:00.000-05:00

I hate distance... and thats all there is to it. Everything I want, besides "yackie" is at home.. even my shampoo and conditioner that i left there last time i went home. I miss my boyfriend, and it's been less than a week since i've seen him. I know that our relationship has grown stronger since I've been away, but i just don't want to be AWAY.

OH well... i'm gonna suck it up damnit. I think me and jackie are gonna go hit up the mall for a bit, exercise a little.. and then i'm gonna call it a night... the sooner i go to bed, the sooner tomorrow comes, and let me tell you I CAN"T WAIT!!! yea yea so i'm going home again... bite me, i don't care if i ever like this place.. no offense jackie, i love you and your the best roomie i've ever had!!!

Now it's time to call my MA... she makes things better

2004-11-10T09:30:00.000-05:00

I got in trouble at class last night!!! AHHH.... so we were supposed to watch a movie but out prof. couldnt' get the DVD player to work for 45 minutes... so to say the least, we were all kinda of pissed for her keeping us there too long. So i called jackie right before the movie was over to tell her that it had just gotten over and she needed to come get me. well my teacher told me to stay after class... booo... at least I didnt' drop a beer bottle and let it shatter all over the floor like another kid in my class. now THAT was funny!!!

I woke up early this morning and took "yacki" to class, then came back to the sweetest voicemail on my phone... and my first class is cancelled..... hopefully this will be a good one!! we'll see, i hope it's better than yesterday

p.s. 12 days until i get to go home... skipping all tuesday classes!! WHOOHOOO

2004-11-09T17:43:00.000-05:00

GRRRRR... Tuesday and and Thursdays are so LOOONGG.. i get done with class at like 12:00 and have nothing to do for the rest of the day!! These are really the only days i get homesick... okay so everyday i get homesick!! but these days are the bad ones. I'm getting ready to call my mom.... she makes me feel sooo much better.

I have a class tonight at 8:30 to watch a movie for English... grrr. what the f*ck... oh well

I went tanning today and to McDonalds, two of my fav. places!! yummy!

Maybe i'll blog later, maybe i won't... but later for now!

2004-11-08T22:50:00.000-05:00

So, Saturday night my shoe and I had some issues. I was running around trying to get ready for the wedding I went to. I was really hyper and jumping around and all, and happened to jump precisely on the skinny heel of my upside-down shoe!!! YEA, pain. I wasn't too worried about it until I looked at it tonight, two days later... it's bruised and swollen...yuck! I'm so weird!

I HAVE A HUGE TEST TOMORROW... and i'm blogging anyway. I dont' think i'm doing very well in that class so i really should be cramming, but ya know, homework is overrated, right?!

Jackie and I have "selected attention," not ADHD. We're really bad at that!!

ANOTHER THING... I don't know why... but I have a collection of socks gathering at my computer desk.. yea, THAT IS GROSS, and i don't really know why they are there. PEW!!

There has been so much information (not school-related, are you kidding me?!) in the past couple of days that have just completely overwhelmed me. My good buddy Jan from my Freshman year of highschool is in the Marines and located at Fallujah, where intense battle started today. I really am praying for him.. he's the coolest! KICK ASS AND COME HOME JAN!

So I went to a wedding 6 weeks ago, and found out today that the couple is getting divorced. I feel so bad for this guy. Can you imagine?!? If I ever get married and that happens to me, I'll have a shit!

ok, I REALLLY need to study!!
you think i will?

2004-11-08T01:06:00.000-05:00

WHAT A BEEEAAUUUtiful weekend!! I love weather like that! So i just got back from home this weekend, and i had a wonderful time!! Friday night Jeremy and I went to eat then to Vaughns for a while. Poor Jeremy looked like a little chipmunk with his wisdom teeth just having been taken out. The wedding was a blast, and hanging out with the "old gang" was too much fun! I got 3 hours of sleep last night, and I have so much homework the next couple of nights, that I don't know if it's humanly possible to get it all done! So I should probably go get that started... but why??! really

2004-11-05T13:04:00.000-05:00

So after I lost my ticket, went to the b-ball game anyway, jackie lost her keys in Assembly Hall, a few beer bongs and a not-so-decent nights sleep, I decided to skip my English class to do more constructive things, such as write in my blog.

So i'm going home today, really excited about that. I'm being taken out to eat tonight, so i'm supposed to pick where... ohhh the options!! Anything that is not served at Gresham Food Court is perfectly fine with me.

I REALLy do have a psych test today that i need to study for, maybe i'll do that for a little bit before I leave for the exam.... or i could get on FACEBOOK.... hmmm what do you think!?

18 days til Thanksgiving Break!!!! can't wait for pumpkin pie and STUFFING!!!

2004-11-04T14:40:00.000-05:00

I am so sick of the darn weather!! Jackie and I have severe cases of seasonal depression, and we really don't know how we're going to make it through the winter.

Parents can only give good advice or put them on the right paths, but the final forming of a person's character lies in their own hands--Anne Frank

I heart my parents. yes, I have tortured them for 18 years and pledged my hatred for them many times throughout my life... but now, I don't know what I'd do without them.

I can't wait to go to PoCo tomorrow. I know , I know, it's been three weeks since i was there last, but don't laugh... thats a record for me! Probably wont' do much too exciting, 'cept the wedding on Saturday.. I've been to more weddings this year than i have in my whole life!! it's crazy. All my brothers friends are getting married. it's so weird considering i've grown up with them around me my whole life, and MARRIED... thats just crazy. I can't wait to get married someday! Weddings are a blast, all the stuff that comes with that is even more exciting!!

Enough crazy talk.... I'm out! Going to do what IU students to best tonight: Watch Hoosier Basketball, and drink it up!!

2004-11-03T09:56:00.000-05:00

So I woke up EARLY this morning because I had my advisors meeting at 8:20, and it was FREEZING outside. Not in a good mood. Imagine that, Carrie is pissed at the world. I wish I wasn't so pessimistic about, well, EVERYTHING. I really do have everything going for me now, but i know that something will have to come along to screw it up, right now, it's the whole homesick thing.. grr, and i've been doing GOOD the past couple of weeks.

So after meeting with my advisor, I think I am definately switching my major to Occupational Therapy. My mom is going to be so disappointed, but oh well, my life right?? I just feel so much better. With Speech and hearing, I only have ONE way I can go.. I HAVE to get my masters and they only offer the masters programs at IU and Ball State. With OT, I have more of an option as to where to go after my bachelors degree...

OK ENOUGH WITH THE BORING SCHOOL STUFF... ughh i dont' even like reading that stuff.
Jeremy gets his teethies pulled out today :( muuahh!!
20 days until Thanksgiving break!!! whoo hooo
2 days till I go home for Jeremy and Tara's wedding!! whoo hoo
42 days till i'm done with 1st semester WHOOOOHOOOOOO

you think i'm ready to go home??? hmmm

2004-11-02T20:00:00.000-05:00

I VOTED TODAY!! I felt really important and everything. To actually have a say in something like that is really cool!

I HATE RAIN... seriously, walking a billion miles to class in the pouring rain with wet feet and soaking jean just sucks!!

2004-10-31T15:58:00.000-05:00

I've learned -that no matter how much I care, some people just don't care back.

I've learned -that it's not what you have in your life but who you have in your life that counts.

I've learned -that you shouldn't compare yourself to the best others can do but to the best you can do.

I've learned -that you can do something in an instant that will give you heartache for life.

I've learned -that it's taking me a long time to become the person I want to be.

I've learned -that you should always leave loved ones with loving words.It may be the last time you see them.

I've learned -that you can keep going long after you think you can't.

I've learned -that my best friend and I can do anything or nothing and have the best time.

I've learned -that true friendship continues to grow,even over the longest distance.Same goes for true love.

I've learned -that we don't have to change friends if we understand that friends change.

I've learned -that two people can look at the exact same thing and see something totally different.

I've learned -that there are many ways of falling and staying in love.

I've learned -that your life can be changed in a matter of hours by people who don't even know you.

I've learned -that writing, as well as talking, can ease emotional pains.

I've learned -that the people you care most about in life are taken from you too soon.

I've learned -that it's hard to determine where to draw the line between being nice and not hurting people's feelings and standing up for what you believe.

2004-10-31T15:40:00.000-05:00

I am the luckiest girl in the whole world!! I have TRUE friends (i knew being picky about who i was friends with would work to my advantage someday), a great family, and a WONDERful boyfriend. I had a really good time this weekend with the fam. and jeremy up here. Anytime I get to eat at Malibu Grill, I KNOW it'll be awesome. food=amazing. Didnt' really do alot, even tho it was a party packed weekend. I was happy to just sit and relax and not have to worry about going somewhere or doing something. Mariah came over and hung out with us on Saturday...i haven't got to hang out with her in forever, so that was fun too. It kind of sucked having to watch everybody leave, but the whole weekend made it worth it.

Hope everyone had a good Halloween!!!

classes all this week... then home for the WEDDING!

2004-10-29T09:37:00.000-05:00

AHHH!!! i'm so excited that it's FRIDAY! Jeremy's coming up here today for the weekend! It's Halloween weekend and thats REALLY huge here... everybody gets really dressed up and all the parties are costume parties. I think this weekend tho, for once, I just want to relax. I dont' want to have to go, go, go... My parents are coming up for the football game too!! I love when they come up here. Nothing beats free meals and trips to the grocery!

I really ahve to finish my paper thats due at 12:30!!

love you all

2004-10-24T22:45:00.000-05:00

2 days+over 1,400 girls+19 sororities=A STRESSFUL and LOUD weekend.. I"m SOOOOO exhausted.

So, basically my whole weekend consisted of walking from chapter to chapter, repeating the answers to the same questions countless times.... very tiring. I'm so excited that it's over, even tho i really did end up having a good time and I'm glad I did it. There are a couple houses that i absolutely love... not too girly and not too freaky at the same time.

"Missing someone gets easier everyday because even though you are one day further from the last time you saw them, you are one day closer to the next time you will."
5 days til I get to see JW!!! so excited, going to bed now!
nite nite!

2004-10-19T23:54:00.000-05:00

Isn't it the best feeling in the world to know that your loved. it's so funny how three little words can change the outcome of ones whole day..... i wait for those words everyday!!!gosh, I'm so happy i'm going to sleep.. night all

2004-10-16T01:18:00.000-05:00

Hey everybody! i just got back from Midnight Madness for IU's Basketball team... it was crazy fun. There were so many people who actually had spirit. (something North Posey has never seen). I"m so excited for basketball season to start, and I never even liked basketball i nthe first place. So it's 1:20 AM and I just got back and i have to study for an exam.... yea the plan to go to midnight madness instead of studying was DEFINATELY not smart on my part, but a girl's gotta have fun, right?!

Anyways, I'm so excited because I get to go home tomorrow after my exam!!! I just hope this time I actually WANT to come back... i might actually, the place MAY be starting to grow on me, but we'll see.

I LOVE GUMMIE BEARS!!!!
goodbye everyone, time to study

2004-10-14T01:01:00.000-05:00

So, IU wasn't nearly as beautiful today... it was yucky outside all day :( It was misty and drizzled all day.. Not to mention the tons of stress put on me the past week. I'm so ready for a break. it's a crock that IU doesn't get a fall break.. I think everyone here could really use one. Anyways, after much drama with the American Red Cross and myself, I finally started working today. lifeguarding at the srsc, of course. It was SOOO boring because all you get to watch are lap swimmers basically... but then, the water polo team came in, and WOW,, are they hot...

Nothing else too exciting happened today... but i get to go home in 3 days!!! (after a SATURDAY exam)
Love you all

2004-10-12T13:21:00.000-05:00

IU is absolutely the most beautiful place in the fall. Seriously, All the leaves have started changing colors, and falling off the trees. I really makes me happy. And it's good to knwo that even with this ever-so-stressful week, I can still look out and see how pretty this place actually is, despite midterms and a nasty dorm room.

Boys are weird... if you are a girl and you dont' agree with me on this one, you've got some serious problems. It's so crazy how one person in your life can alter your whole mood. I always told myself i would never give in or make certain decisions for a guy. I actually laughed at people who did that. But i guess I was never in that position. grrr... if they only understood.

You know, when Kenny Chesney's "Alot of Things Different" came out last year, i just hated that song. It was about all the regrets people have in thier life. I just didn't understand how someone could have that many doubts about themselves. Now i see it in a totally different perspective. Somedays, I wish I could turn back the hands of time and change many of the decisions I made. But there is no use in pondering on the past, so I will try to make up for the mistakes I made and hope everyone or everything will accept.

P.S. Andrea is GREAT... thanks for the blog dedicated to Carrie... i love it!

2004-10-10T01:50:00.000-05:00

So i am sitting in my room at 1:50 AM.. yea, i know it's kinda early for a weekend at IU, but GOSH... i'm missing soo much sleep.. Friday night was sooo much fun, thanks to Aaron, Nita, and Emily. i went to the bars!! wow.. so IU doesn't suck so bad. Saturday I went to visit my parents. They were camping at a park about an hour and a half away from here so i went to see them. My mom and I shared some quality time, which hasn't happened in, well, forever. It's so crazy... my mom and i didn't get along for the first 18 years of my life, and now i can honestly say she is my best friend, ever!! love you mom!

Tonight Anne and Casey came up to visit. I wasnt' in the best of moods, but i ended up having a really good time.. I'm really glad that I ended up staying here for the weekend. Yea, I am REALLLy homesick, but i've got to get past that. Thank GOD i have great people in my life to help me thru it.

Love you all, it's Dirty Dancing and sleep time!

2004-10-07T22:27:00.000-05:00

So I'm sitting in my dorm room, and it's thirsty Thursday and there are people in my room, but i'm sad. dont' ask me why, because i should be enjoying myself. but i'm not.... i'm a stubborn, stubborn girl. someone please make me happy. (jw).. grrr. please cheer up self....

2004-10-06T23:19:00.000-05:00

So.. I have a reason and an excuse for not writing in my blog the past couple of, well, MONTHS. I forgot my password to my account... yea, I know I'm a genius. But there has been so much going on in my life that I just need to get it out here again. It makes me feel alot better about things.

The past couple of months have been a conglomeration (ok i can't spell it) of highs and lows. I love the person I love the most, but got it back. I'm attending IU, my lifelong dream... but I've never realized how wonderful I had it at home. Some days I love it here and others, I'd rather be anywhere else. Don't get me wrong, I've met some amazing people here who are incredibly fun, but as Dorothy says, "There's no place like home." I'd be OK and would LOVE it here if it wasn't for that damn boy.... grrr

I have decided to change my major. Not a MAJOR switch (haha no pun intended.. yea i know it was REALLY bad). Instead of speech therapy, I'm going to go for Occupational therapy. They are both 6 year programs, which kinda freaks me out because I'll be in college until i'm 24!!! But with occupational therapy I have more option of where to go for graduate school. If i still really like it here, I can go here, or if something happens, I can go closer to home. I feel better about this because at least I have the option.

Need to study... grrr thats ALL I DO...

2004-05-06T22:07:00.000-05:00

I AM A BLOG SLACKER!!! There are only 24 hours in a day, and I cannot find 10 minutes to write in this damned thing. So sorry. But you see, I have almost only one week left of my high school career and all the teachers at NPHS got together one night, and decided to torture all the graduating seniors with TONS, not just a little, but TONS of busy work and pointless SHIT (excuse the language) to do until the end of the year.

Another thing, next Saturday is our senior picnic.... you know, we practice graduation and stuff like that... then we get the whole day free to play games, eat and just hang out. Well, we aren't getting any cool games or things to do... WASHERS... WHOOO HOOO!!! WE aren't getting any cool games cuz the softball girls wont' be able to play them... I'm not bashing these girls cuz I like 'em, duh my best friend is on the team... but really now... what are we all supposed to do... 134 people can't play washers at once... So i've decided that I'm going to lay out and get a good start on my summer tan!!

ok.. two weeks from right now... i will be at the most wonderful concert ever. KENNY'S COMING TO TOWN!! i'm totally obsessed with him. Even though he's probably a foot shorter than me, I still love him.. There's something about guys with tans, cowboy hats, muscles, and tight tight jeans.. wow. Even better, I'll be enjoying it with my favorite person ever, for the time being at least!

2004-04-27T18:41:00.000-05:00

i have a cold... i can't breathe through my nose, my throat feel like sandpaper, and my head feels like someone is wrapping a rubberband around it really tight...I just made some chicken noodle soup though... and even better, it's not just chicken noodle soup, it chiken noodle with little goldfishes in it!! there so cute. I'm gonna go get seconds actually. BYE BYE

2004-04-26T16:25:00.000-05:00

I have 14 days of my high school career left!! I'm so happy I could pee in my pants... well not really, but I am very excited. No more high school drama.

Some days I feel helpless. I hate it when someone asks me a question or advice and I do not have a good solid reply for it. I'm pretty much a self-thinker, some call it stubborn, but whatever. I used to have an answer to every problem in the world. But lately, I've begun to find that there really isn't an answer to everything. Somes things are meant to be good and some don't turn out that way. Its hard to explain, so see.. I still dont' have the answer.

I have HUGE butterflies in my stomach... i really dont' know why... I'm happy 2/3's of the day, but then this wave of BLAHHness comes over me and i start feeling cruddy... so, I'll just go take a bubble bath...

2004-04-25T15:26:00.000-05:00

I'm so tired of being pissed, sad, and depressed all the time.... from now on it s happy thoughts, all the time!! nomatter what

2004-04-22T23:04:00.000-05:00

It's about 11O0 and i'm as happy as anyone can be. I 'ave jsut spent the past 5 hours with my favorite people ever... i'm partially drunk, yes, but stilll happy.. This is the only part of high school that i will miss. I will be 2 hours adn 25 minutes away from home next year and will not be able to go backroading every nite. These are some of my fondest memories.

I know i sould like a redneck talking about drinking beer and driving backroads, but this ismy life and i wouldnt' trade anything i n the world for it..

Yea, i have frienda who plan on living in NYC, and La, and thats great!! seriously, i applaud these people for acheiving what they want, but my dream is to b e here, with the FAB FOUR, in poco. It's where my brother, my best friend, is. not to mention my family, and i cherish them way tooo much, nomatter what i might say other wise.

i really think it is awesome thw way people wthink. May be i should be a physicologist!!!

2004-04-22T16:01:00.000-05:00

I have nothing to complain about today.. Nothing went wrong, nothing fell through, nobody pissed me off. so I'm happy right?

Yea i think so. It was a good day. Right now tho, I'm gonna lay down, watch oprah.. then head out for a crazy night with 3 people I love.

2004-04-21T19:56:00.000-05:00

WE got our SENIOR WILLS today, and I'm sitting here trying to fill it out. I can use up to 150 words. The only problem is, I dont' have enough friends to find 150 words about. I choose not to have many friends, but it's depressing.

Other than that, it's been a great day!

2004-04-20T16:15:00.000-05:00

I just finished watchin the DR. PHIL SHOW.. yea I know, i'm a nerd.. anyways, today he was talking about girls in high school and cliques. This whole show made me wanna throw up. THis side of girls were bitching because the other group talked about them, and vice versa. Seriously, this came way too close to home. Being in a position where I have been "one both sides" of this topic, it really showed how stupid it all was. But it's not like I was enlightened by this show. I know that Girls are dumb.

Thats why the past 3 years I have decided not to worry about who likes me or doens't, because in less that a month, I'm graduating and have the option of making all new friends. Yea, I have a few close friends that I'll wanna keep in touch with. I know these people have bad days (today for example) but i'd rather stick with them and put up with the crap for one day, than dealing with people who are judging every step I take.

And now I'm in a bad mood, so i'm gonna go sulk and take a bubble bath.. ARGHH I deserve that!

2004-04-19T19:43:00.000-05:00

Ok... I've finally decided to give in and start my own blog. So now You'll be able to nose in my life!! trust me, it's not too excited. Please ignore all grammatical errors and bad typing skills. Ur just gonna have to get over it.

Yesterday was a beautiful day!! I love sunshine. While mom was outside working in her flower garden, i walked outside to talk to her and sat down on the hot concrete. When I sat down I had childhood flashbacks. I remember sitting for hours on hot concrete and writing with my sidewalk chalk for hours. I remember swimming in my 2 foot pool that mom would put out under the shelter in the back yard. My friends and I would go "lay out" on the hot concrete. Our laying out consisted of no longer than five minutes. WEll, My attention span hasn't gotten any better as the years have gone on. Natalie and I would make a "road" from the steps on my front porch to the polebarn door, and rollerblade as fast as we could down until we slammed into the door. Gosh, those were the good ol' days.

Now I have things to stress about. Especially school!! I have to keep reminding myself that I only have a few weeks left until I'm done with high school forever. But i dont' think it will come soon enough. I have AP English 1st period and today we got back our 15 page research paper. Well I worked, and worked and worked. and got a D!!!! i'm so ticked!! why did I waste all that time for nothing!! arghhh

c-ya!!